I see some of my closest friends fall into love, fall out of love, get their hearts broken, and then fall in love again with the whole nine yards worth of perfect moments in no more than a years worth of time.
I’m happy for them. I really am. But I just sit here some nights and wonder: when will it be my turn?

intothewordless:

And I know what I have to do now. I gotta keep breathing. Because tomorrow the sun will rise. Who knows what the tide could bring? 
-Cast Away

There are too many things coming up that I should be excited or at least looking forward to, but I’m not. Not for any of them.

Why do so many people think that the price of a meal buys them the right to be a tyrant toward a waiter? I think one of the best ways to judge a person’s character is to observe how they treat people from which they have nothing to gain.

I remember when you and grandpa got your first laptop and ended up calling us frantically one evening because something had popped up on the screen saying you won $100,000 dollars and you didn’t know what to do.

intramuro:

i get so scared of phone conversations

do you ever want to slap yourself in the face because you know you should be doing something productive but instead you choose to sit in front of a laptop for hours on end doing shit that has no beneficial impact on your life and this just happens day after day after day and still you refuse to accept the fact that you have a problem

I’ve been secretly crushing on someone who I met only once, hung out with for only a few hours and lives 1,437 miles away since summer of 2011.

This is how I see it.

I’m the greatest friend you’ll ever have UNTIL you start to do things that make me sad or upset or annoyed. I’ll shower you with presents, talk to you all the time, and always, always be there for you and actually make an attempt to help you in any situation you may be in. But the moment you start lying to me, ignoring me, my texts, and my calls, replacing me, and basically not putting forth any effort that equals mine - I start to treat you the same way. Anything you do to me, I do back. It’s probably petty of me, but I become really bitter and upset.

Sometimes I think I expect too much of others because of how much I put into my friendships and relationships with them. But is that really so bad?

I go through my days wanting so hard to be accepted by those who I immensly love and care about and it ruins me inside to see a lot of what I do gets unacknowledged and pushed to the side.. as if I don’t even matter. I just see it as unfair and sometimes believe I’m better off without them. It’s just hard to leave behind someone who you know has impacted your life so much.

This is life though. Change. I might as well accept it.